haiz..got a job..promoter of the new neslac coffeemate liquid creamer..5-9pm..them wanna quit as i have another job offer..singtel customer service..training tml and start work on wed 11-7pm..haiz..but i could not take the singtel job..as i have to make a big sacrifice..if i take the singtel job..no one gonna take care of her..so the someone who take care of her is me..as my siblings all came home in the afternoon...she have no one in the morning acompany her..so too bad for me..i really wanna that job and go for the training tml..but i cannot..as my mom nearly fainted tonight..and my dad ask me to sacrifice my job as they do not want anything to happen to my mom..haiz..so there..have to stop thinking bout the singtel job and the $1000++ i could make if i took the job..im so money minded..they my dad even say need to stop to think bout money always and take care for my mom for now..since im the eldest..haiz..i really need to sacrifice as i coud not depend on zarinna..she have her N level this year..wanna let her study hard and score well..dont wanna mah fan her..i think bout money as i have goals u see..i wanna learnt knitting, go gym..if have money..then all if fine mah..i very sian always ask my parents money..now since im not taking the singtel job..they sponcer me the knitting..but still guilty..always use their money..i wanna EARN and use my own money..guess this is not the time to think bout that as mom health is more impt..just hope i have enough VCDs to last me this long and home..so far..i only have stairway to heaven..haiz..no money also cannot but many novels..so long i have not step in BORDERs and buy 3-5 novels in one go..so fun..guess the novels need to wait..need to find a remedy for boredom at home..haiz..